Title: Any Reason
Author: Breanna
Feedback: bgrJourney05@yahoo.com
Rating: PG-13
Category: WIP
Type: Angst /Mob/Rape/Abuse
Summary: How much is to much? Can Courtney piece her life back together after she abandons everything? Or will she become so destructive to herself that nobody will be able to help her?

Chapter 1

This is for the best. She told herself as she opened the door to the loft and entered it with her daughter. As she set the baby carrier and the diaper bag on the kitchen counter, she looked around. "Well looks like your daddy hasn’t been here in a long time" she said to the sleeping enfant. She herself hadn’t been back to her and Jason’s loft since she found out she was pregant. "Oh gosh I didn’t realize it was so late" she commented mainly to herself as she looked down at her watch. It was already 3 am so if she was going to do it she needed to do it now. She quickly grabbed a pad and pen and started writing.

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Jason slammed the door to his penthouse. As he threw his keys and his jacket on the desk he sighed. It had been 7 months since they broke up and she left. Yet he still had her face stamped in his mind and her voice recorded in his ears. All his thoughts were of her. He shook his head he had to stop torturing himself with her. She was gone and it was his fault. He laid down on his couch in a feeble attempt to catch some sleep.

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Ding

Courtney stepped off the elevator with her whole life. But she couldn’t do it anymore, and she wasn’t going to make her daughter pay for her mistakes. When she approached his door she knew this was it. She set the carrier down on the floor and pulled the light pink pooh blanket down off the carrier to reveal a beautiful baby. "Hey sweetie. You know I love you kid, but right now I can’t take care of you. But I’m gonna leave you with your daddy. He’s great, he’ll love you and make sure you have everything your little heart could ever desire." she said to her little girl as tears started to stream down her face. She then took a silver locket off her neck. "I want you to keep this it has a picture of your daddy and I and it has a picture of you and I." she said as she set the locket in the baby’s lap and turned towards the diaper bag. She quickly pulled out a big manilla envelope and a letter , she set both in plain veiw on the diaper bag and the carrier. "Bye baby." she said as she kissed the baby’s forehead and banged on the door to ph4, before running to the staircase. She trusted Jason to take care of their daughter and knew he had everything he needed to be a great father.

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Jason groaned. I swear Carly has got to be up my ass every freakin moment of every freakin day doesn’t she. He thought to himself before yelling "Carly go away" he didn’t even bother to get up knowing that after a few seconds she would just burst in like she owned the place. He didn’t even know why she bothered to knock. He waited for the Carly drama to start. After about 5 minutes when Carly didn’t appear he decided to go investigate. "Carly what the hell....." he yelled as he opened the door, but stopped short at the sight before him. "What the...." was all he could manage. He knelt down and pulled the pink blanket off the carrier top reveal a tiny baby with very little blonde hair. He just froze. Not knowing what else to do he picked the carrier and bags around it up and brought them inside his penthouse. In doing so he found the note and the manilla envelope.

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As she got down to the sidewalk she stopped and looked up the window that she knew was Jason’s penthouse. She could see him on the balcony reading her note. "I love you" she whispered as she got into her car and drove off. Not knowing where she was going she just drove. She needed to get some distance between her and her daughter and Jason. If she didn’t she knew the temptation to go back would over come her. But abandoning her baby was for the best. It’s not abandoning her I left her with her father.......father or not you abandoned your baby. She was battling herself and the longer she argued with herself the more she was rethinking her attention. No Courtney don’t do this its for the best you are doing what is best for you and her and him. It’s the right thing that’s all she had to keep telling herself.

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Jason couldn’t believe what he was reading. As he read it for the 6^th time all he could think about was how much his life had just changed in a matter of seconds.

Dear Jason,

Hey. You don’t know has long I’ve wanted to call or stop by, but I guess this is the next best thing right. Well I’m taking , you reading this, as a sure sign that you have met Katie. Allow me to formerly introduce you Jase that baby is Katie Marie Morgan, your daughter. If you need to, have a paternity test done. Basically I found out I was 2 months pregnant a week after you broke up with me. I figured that if you didn’t want me then you wouldn’t want her. My greatest fear was that you’d reject her. I couldn’t kill our child so abortion was out. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I gave her up and she was placed in a bad home. So adoption was out. When I decided to have her I almost went to you......but I saw you kissing Elizabeth and figured you had already moved on. She was born 2 weeks ago tomorrow. September 4, at general hospital. She was 5lbs 2oz., 16' long. The day she was born I saw you, you actually walked by my room a few times.....but when you walked by you were with Elizabeth so again I figured you had moved on. I don’t blame you and I knew you would eventually ......but I won’t lie and it did hurt to see you with someone else, especially specifically Elizabeth. I am truly sorry for not giving you fare warning before just leaving her on your door step. But I can’t take care of her anymore....and I know that you will be a great dad. She has everything she needs right there. But if you could do one thing for me please.....please......please make sure that she knows I love her....and you. I love you both so much but I can’t be who you both need me to be. I wish I could and I want you both to know you’ll always be in my mind and heart. I love you Katie....I love you so much. Jase take care of her for me please. I love you both.

xoxo Courtney

P.S. Make sure she knows she’s not a mistake and that she was conceived out of love and that we both love her very much.....I love you Jase and I thank you for everything you’ve done for me including her.

So many thoughts were running through his head. She was pregnant, she has been here, I have a daughter, we have a daughter, she loves me. He was brought abruptly out of his thoughts by the sounds of whimpering coming from the carrier. He turned the small enfant that was starting to stir. As he unbuckled the restraints and picked the baby up he started to talk to her. "Hey Katie.... I guess I’m your daddy." the tiny baby looked around curiously. "This is your new home...I don’t know where you lived before but I think this is ok.". As he walked around the house he continued to talk to his new found daughter. "Your Uncle Sonny and Aunt Carly live right next door." He walked out on the balcony, continue to talk to her " This is Port Charles.......it’s a nice place to live for the most part." As he talked to her he couldn’t help but notice her little nose was just like Courtney’s. "You know you have a cousin Michael. He’s gonna love you. But then again who wouldn’t." he laughed as the baby started cooing. "You have your mothers nose you know that." He continued to talk to Katie for the next 3 hours, despite her falling asleep, he continued to tell her about her family and about Port Charles.

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Courtney banged on the door to her fathers room above Kelly’s. "I’m coming" she heard him yell from some where inside.

As he slowly opened the door his breath caught. "Hey sweetie I haven’t seen you in a while." he said engulfing her in a hug.

"Hey daddy" she said hugging him back. "I.....uh....I can’t stay I just wanted to say hi...and umm" she started trying to choose her words wisely as to get out of there quickly but at the same time make sure he got around to see Katie.

"Ok.. Do you want to come in" he asked as he watch the tears build up in her eyes. "Court sweety what’s the matter."

"Uh Nothing" she said shrugging his hand off her shoulder. "Could you just do me a favor? Please" she asked

"Yea sure honey anything" he said surprised by his daughters attitude change.

"Could you.....could you just stop in and see Jason..." she started "No daddy listen to me" she scolded before he had the chance to protest. "Jason...... he .......Just please...please.......go see him he has something I think you should see."

He sighed "I’ll try I can’t guarantee anything."

"NO.....you have to promise me.....it’s very important that you go and see Jason.....Daddy if nothing else do it for me please?" she begged. She knew that of his own free will he wouldn’t go. But she prayed that for her sake he would and then she would at least have comfort in knowing that she left her daughter with a very big loving supportive family.

"Ok if it really means that much to you I will stop by right after work. Ok?" he said giving in. He knew obviously it meant something to her that he go so for her he would go. After all she was his one and only daughter.

"Thank you daddy" she said "I have to go" she said quickly hugging him and turning to leave.

"Ok I’ll see you later.." he called after her

"No! Bye" she cut him off and ran the rest off the way out.

"Courtney......Courtney" he yelled as he ran after her. But stop short at the bottom of the stairs when he saw her run out the door. No w very confused by the awkward conversation and his daughters sudden exit he grabbed an apron and went to work, still trying to process the conversation he had just had.

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"Jase" Carly yelled as she slammed the door to his penthouse.

"Carly stop yelling" he said his voice barely above a whisper. As he checked to make sure Carly hadn’t waken Katie up during her yelling.

"Jason Morgan don’t tell me to stop...." she stopped short as she took in the sight in front of her. She couldn’t believe her eyes. "What the Hell" she said her voice barley above a whisper as she looked around at the diaper bag on the desk and Jason on the couch with a bunch of papers spread out on the coffee table in front of him. But her eyes grew wide as she saw what she had missed before the carrier on the coffee table that Jase was now rocking back and forth very slowly. "Jase where did you get a baby?" she asked utterly confused.

He was brought out of his reverie at the sound of Carly’s voice. He stopped rocking the carrier and looked back at her. "Carly this is your niece Katie Marie Morgan" he said.

She slowly made her way around the couch and took the sit in front of the carrier. "My.....my niece" she asked pointing to herself with a very confused look on her face.

He put the pictures in his hand down and turned to Carly. "Carly this is your niece......my daughter....Katie Marie Morgan." he said as if she were slow.

"I don’t understand.." she said looking from the baby to him. "How?" she asked.

"Here" he said as he handed her the letter from Courtney. He then got up and walked over to the diaper bag and rummaged through it until he found a miniature cooling pouch that held 2 bottles. He took one of them out and walked back over to the couch . He then set the bottle down and reached over Carly to get the baby. As he picked up the baby he looked back over at Carly who had tears in her eyes.

"Jase" she said

"Yea" he replied as he fed his daughter who was barley awake.

"You do realize 2 weeks ago when Courtney saw you in the hospital with Elizabeth you were going to see me." she said as tears started to flow freely down her face.

"Yea.......I realized that." he said looking at her he could see pain and guilt in her eyes.

"I.....I’m sorry...she left because she thought you were with Elizabeth when she was just showing you to my room." she cried. It’s my fault she’s not here. She thought to herself.

"No.....No Carly this is not your fault she said she couldn’t take care of her it’s not your fault so stop." he said reassuringly. Then he got an idea. "Carly do you......do you wanna hold your niece?" he asked.

Her eyes lit up. "Sure" she said wiping her tears away and taking the baby. She laughed. "You know in a couple of months I will be holding mine and Sonny’s baby" she smiled.

"I know" he smiled as he went back to looking at the pictures in front of him. He sighed he didn’t know what to do. He continued to sift through the pictures, documents, letters, tapes on the table in front off him.

"What is all that?" Carly asked when she saw how frustrated he was getting with it.

He sighed. "Well she thought of everything, with the letter she left a manilla envelope of.... well everything. I mean there’s letters she wrote me but never sent, all of Katie’s documentation is here, she has pictures of her when she was pregnant and when Katie was first born. She even left all the ultrasound pictures and tapes here." He picked up a picture of Courtney in her hospital gown holding Katie.

"Oh My God she even labeled all of them.....Jase your not just gonna let her go are you?" Carly asked as she finally stopped staring at her more than adorable niece who was now asleep and put her back in her carrier.

He sighed and rubbed his head he felt a migraine coming on. "I don’t know.......I mean I know she is going to regret leaving Katie here tomorrow.........but I want to respect her decision.......But I do want to help her, I want to know what happened to make her think that couldn’t be a mother anymore.....I wanna know what lead her to leave our child on my doorstep with no warning."

"I don’t know but I have a bad feeling that something’s wrong."she said as she stood up to leave. "Do you want me to send Sonny over so he can meet the newest member of our family?"

"Uh no......I’ll go over and see him later I just need to make a few calls first." he said as he walked her to the door "Oh by the way what did you come over for again." he smiled knowing that whatever it was was beyond her at this point.

"Uhh......I don’t remember." she said as she smacked him on the chest playfully. When she opened the door she ran into someone. "Woo sorry" she said before she looked to see who it was. "Hey Mike what are you doing here?" she asked curiously.

"I am actually here to see Jason" he said not noticing Jason who was standing right behind the door.

"Umm ok" she said confused.

Jason walked out into Mike’s view. "What do you want" he spat. He never really like Mike and it only made it worse that Mike didn’t approve of his once relationship with Courtney.

"No need to be hostile" Mike said crossing his arms over his chest. "I’m only here because Courtney asked me to come... She said you had something that I needed to see." he smirked knowing that just because Courtney sent him was irritating the hell out of him.

"I think I should go" Carly chimed in unnoticed by the two men who were now in a glaring contest. She carefully slipped out of the door way, and left Mike to Jason.

"Fine come in" Jason said hostilely as he moved out of the way and shut the door behind Mike.

"Where’d the baby come from......" Mike asked half laughing "are you and my son now into kidnaping to or is it just your new hobby to make your life that much more thrilling." He smirked knowing he was getting on Jason’s last nerve.

"Well geez Mike I don’t think it’s kidnaping when it’s your kid." Jason replied hoarsely trying to contain his anger for both his daughter’s and Courtney’s sake.

"Where’s the mother......Or did she get blown up already." Mike replied smartly while he walked closer to the child to get a better look.

"I don’t know where Courtney is at the present moment but I do intend to find her." he said trying very hard to contain his laughter when he saw Mikes eyes bulge out of his head.

"Courtney? This isn’t Courtney’s baby....she would have told me this morning when I saw her." he said in disbelief as he sat down on the couch infront of the carrier.

"Wait you saw her this morning what did she say?" Jason asked intrigued by this new revelation.

"She said to come see you....that you had something I needed to see." he said as he stared at the baby.

"Did she say anything else?" he asked desperate for any clue of her whereabouts.

"No." he stated simply as he started to undo the restraints on the baby.

Jason shook his head in disbelief. "Well......No, no, no, no, no don’t pick her up she just went to sleep." he said while he rushed over to Mikes side and grabbed the baby from his hands. She started to cry. "Dammit Mike!"

"Hey don’t you swear around my grandchild... and if it really is my child I should be allowed to hold her." He yelled as he tried to take her back from Jason.

"Mike would you please she’s not going to calm down if you keep yelling." Jason said firmly as he walked away from Mike with his daughter.

"Well I wouldn’t calm down either if I had a hitman as a father." Mike screamed as he once again reached for the baby.

"Father?" Sonny said as the commotion stopped and the only thing heard was Katie’s screams. Jason and Mike looked up to find Sonny. Niether had noticed him enter the penthouse.

Great now I have more explaining to do then I had hoped for. Jason thought as he turned away from Mike. "Sonny..."

*how’s that for a cliff hanger*

BTW Carly is 6 months pregnant with Morgan. Just to clear up any confusion.

Spoilers

~What will Sonny say about his nice

~Emily meets Katie

~Courtney witnesses Elizabeth and Jason with her daughter

~old friends re enter Courtney’s life

A/N: I know I am going to get this so I’ll just say this now yes I am also writing No Mountain High Enough and no I will not be abandoning that story I fully intend on finishing both. Feedback is also very much appreciated even if it’s to tell me It sucked. I write for your entertainment and my health lol. Anywayz I am 14 and do need any and all advice you can give me. Thank you and I hope you like it.

~Bright SMiles~

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