Journey Online

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Rating: R
Category: Work in Progress
Type: Alternate Reality / Romance
Summary: Jason is married to Brenda but when he meets Courtney will he be able to saty faithful to his wife or will e fall for Courtney Charms.

A/N: This fic is about Courtney Matthews and Jason Morgan. Jase is married Brenda but they didn’t marry for convince but because the fell for each other. Sonny is not Courtney brother but he is her good friend. She came to P.C. to get away from an abusive home. Sonny helped her get out and got her the loft that she now lives in and a job at Carly’s club. She was never married or any of that story line. Carly and her are best friends and Carly hates Brenda still. When Courtney meets Jason…Um well read, chapter on and you will find out. I hope you enjoy this fic.

Courtney walked into her new home. She was so happy to be in Port Charles and if it weren’t for Sonny, she wouldn’t be here. Hell she might even be alive. He father liked to beat her and her mother. Finally her mother had got tried and up and left while Courtney was at a friends house. The next day when she come home her father had beat her until she was bleeding from many parts on her body. When her father had lest. Most likely to drink himself stupid, she got off the floor and into her bedroom. Her mother had left a note:

I am sorry I was never able to protect you. I am sorry I left you like I have but it is the only way. You are now twenty and are in the process of getting your own place. Try to get away from you father as far as you can. I love you and I want the best for you. Call Sonny. I know when I told you to before, you said you didn’t want to infer in his life. That he has so much going on. I called him yesterday and told him what was going on. He told me to get out of there and tell you to call him. Please do it. I love you. I will miss and I hope to see you soon. Go to Port Charles. GO to Sonny.

When she had first read the letter, she felt hurt and betrayed but the next day when her father had come home drunk and tried to rape her she knew she needed to call Sonny. When she had pushed her father down and he passed out, she ran into her room and got her cell. She called Sonny and told him what had happen. She had met with sonny when she was younger and they still lived in NYC. Her older brother had hung out with him. Courtney may have been about 10 or 9 when she met him. He had liked her brother and liked her. They became closer and closer to one another. One day her brother got killed in a shoot out. Sonny had already left but he came back for the funeral. He had promised her brother a long time ago if anything happen to him he would watch out for Courtney but she was so angry with everyone she pushed everyone away. Then later, she pulled a lot of the people back but never Sonny.

Sonny had forgiven her. He had found her a place to live. A place to work, his wife new club The Cellar as hostess. It paid well and she had made a new friend in Carly. Sonny had told her that she was like the little sister that her always wanted and she told him that he was like the big brother that she missed.

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“Dammit Brenda what ARE you doing with him?” Jason asked his wife. He had caught her with Jax when he came home. He had been gone for about 3 weeks. He knew something was going even before he left. He loved Brenda but she was always with Jax. She would go shopping with him, dancing, clubbing, and dinner. He could handle that. Sure he didn’t like it but he could deal with it. What he couldn’t handle her going to bed with him.

“I’m sorry Jason. I missed you and something just happened.”

“Yeah your weakness came back. Look I want him out of here before I get back. When I do, we are going to have a long talk. No I know what’s better you to stay here I will go stay with Sonny and Carly or I’ll go stay at Jake’s but whatever my choice is. I really do not want to talk to you for awhile.” Jason said in a cold voice. The funny thing is that he felt more heartbreak when Liz slept with Zander then he did at this moment.

“I’m sorry Jason. I love you. Please Jason.” She cried as Jason walked out the door. She watch him get on the elevator. She knew what he was going to do. He was going to go ride his damn motorcycle. Dammit. Why do I always fall for Jax? Why?

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Courtney was at Sonny’s and Carly penthouse. She was waiting for she do get ready. Sonny walked in the door. “Hey Court. Waiting for Carly.”

“Yeah we’re going to the cellar together.” She stood up and walked over to the wet bar and refilled her glass with water.

“Do you always dress like that to work?” Sonny asked. She was wearing a leather skirt that came to about mid thigh. A tight long sleeved white shirt and black boots that laced up in the back with white laces.

“What wrong with it?” Courtney asked with a edge to her voice.

“Nothing. It’s just a little sexy.”

“That the point.”

“Oh. Whatever. It’s your body. If you want to show it off that fine with me.”

“Sonny stop.” Carly said as he came down the stairs. She was wearing a leather skirt but her came to her knees and had slits on each side that came to her thigh. She had on a tight red long sleeved shirt with same kind of boots as Courtney but her had read laces.

“Maybe I should come to the Cellar to watch you to. You both look good.”

“Thank you and I would love you to come with us.”

“Okay I think I will. Let’s go.”

The three people went to the Cellar.

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Courtney was standing at the entrance of the club. She had everyone seated and was waiting for another person. Then a guy came down the stairs. Wearing a pair of blue jeans and a blue T-shirt with leather coat. ‘Damn he is sexy.’ She thought to herself. “Hi may I help you.”

“Yeah a table for one.” Jason said. He didn’t know who this girl was and she didn’t know who he was. He didn’t know Carly had hired a new hostess. This girl look sexy as hell. That leather skirt, the shirt, the hair, the smile and her sexy blue eyes. ‘Stop it Morgan you’re a married man.’ He thought to himself ‘Yeah to a cheater’

“Okay right this way.” She led him over to his table. He watch how her little ass shook as he walked. Damn this girl was built. “Your waitress or waiter will be right with you.”

She smiled to him and walked off. He followed her all they way to her post. He saw Sonny and Carly coming his way.

“Hey Jase I didn’t know your were back. Why aren’t you with Brenda?”

“Well me and her had fight and I really don’t want to talk about it.”

“Okay. I understand. So I see you met Courtney.”

“Oh you meant the new hostess.”

“Yeah, she’s really nice.”

“She is like a little sister to me.”

“Oh.” Was all Jason could say.

“Courtney!” Carly called over. She came over and stood by Sonny. “I want you to meet me and Sonny’s best friend. Jason Morgan.”

“Hello, nice to formally meet you.”

“Me and Carly are getting ready to leave. Will you be okay?”

“I can call a cab or I could call Max if I need a ride.”

“Okay. I’ll see you tomorrow. Remember girls day out.”

“Yes Carly. Bye.” She gave the older women a hug and then turn and gave Sonny a hug.

“Bye the two of you.”

“Well I better get back to my position.”

“Yeah. It was nice meeting you.”

“You too.” With that, Courtney went back to the front of the club.

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The club was getting ready to close and Jason was still there. He was still nursing the Scotch and rocks that he had almost order a hour ago. He was mainly watching how Courtney moved around the club. How her hips swayed, he little ass shook, how her breast moved as she moved at a fast pace, and how her smile lit up the whole room. Then he saw a guy getting a little to familiar with her. She was trying to shake him but he wasn’t taking no for an answer.

“I think the lady so to leave her alone.” Jason said in a cold voice.

When the man saw who was talking to him, he quickly apologized to Courtney. “I’m sorry Mr. Morgan. I didn’t know she was a friend of yours.” With that man laid a twenty on the table and all but ran out of the club.

“Thanks.” Courtney said.

“It’s okay. Look you’re about closed and I’m sure the rest of these people can handle it. Let me take you home.”

“Um thanks I would like that.” Courtney went to tell the head waitress that she was leaving and asked if she could lock up.”

“Sure no prob.” The young lady said.

Her and Jason went to his bike. He looked at her then at the bike. It wouldn’t work. Especially with that skirt. “Let me call a limo and I will pick my bike up later tonight.”

“Okay.” The limo came around and they got in. When the reached her loft and then her door she looked at him. “Thank you for the safe return home.”

“Your welcome.” He watch as her lips moved. The full and soft and he bet they were also sweet. She moved closer to him and gave him a peck on the cheek.

Then he did what he wanted to do since he met her. He gave her a kiss. At first, she didn’t return it but by the time his tongue was in her mouth, she began to. Her tongue stroked his and his hers. Her hands were on his neck and his were now on her hip. He pulled her closer and continued to kiss her. He pulled her. He had to ask her before this went any farther. “Are you sure?”

She answered him by kissing him. Nibbling on his lips. Stroking his tongue with her own. Tasting him deeply. He moved his hand between them and put it up her shirt and stroked her breast beneath her bra. She pulled away and whispered that they needed to go inside. He moved away and let he unlock the door. He picked her up and walked into the loft. He kicked the door shut and carried her to the bed. He laid her down gently.

Oh lord what have I done? Last night it seemed like a good idea. A way to get back at Brenda but now all this was really going to do is hurt two very special women. God. He was going to hurt the two women he cared about.

I need to get out of here. He couldn’t be here any longer or he would want to make love to her again. No..no making love is what I do with Brenda. What I had with Courtney was sex. Plain and simple sex. Maybe not plain but it was sex.

Then why do you feel like it was more? Why are you hating walking out before she even wakes up? a little voice in that back of his head asked. Because it wasn’t just sex. It was making love and you damn well know it.

No it was only sex, he said back to the voice. Sex that is all. Great sex but only sex.

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Jason walked out of the loft feeling like a jackass. He had left her a note telling her to meet her to meet him at Kelly’s to talk. He had to tell he that he was married and that they couldn’t see each other again. That he was sorry. “Dammit why did I take my ring off.” He muttered to himself.

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Courtney woke up to a empty bed. She reached over to see if the man who had captured her heart with one night of passion. It could be that he was only her second lover but she knew it wasn’t. He was so gentle, so kind, so caring, and so responsive. He treated her like a princess. All four times. When she reached over all she felt was paper. She picked it up and saw it was a note from him.

I want to meet with you at Kelly’s. We really have to talk about something. Please meet me there around nine or ten.

For some reason, she had a bad feeling about this meeting. She looked at her clock to see what time it was. It was quarter till nine. She got out of bed and went to the bathroom and took a shower.

After that, she got dress in a pair of low-rise flare jeans and black tank top. She pulled her jean coat on and left.

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She saw Jason sitting at the corner table. When she saw his face and it was creased with a frown, she knew something was wrong. She went to stand next to him and leaned down to give him a kiss. He turn his head right before her lips hit his cheek her kiss hit his mouth. It was supposed to be a quick peck but it turn in to a deep passionate kiss. He put his hands around her waist and held her in place. When he felt that it was getting a little out of control, he pulled back. “We need to stop and talk please.”

“Okay.” Courtney sat opposite of him.

“Would you like anything to eat or drink?” Jason asked.

“Just coffee please.”

Jason called over Penny and got two cups a coffee for them. They sat in silence until they came. “Look Courtney there is something I should have told you before last night.”

“What?” Courtney asked.

“You are going to be mad at me but can you control your temper so we won’t make a scene.”

“Maybe but I have know what is before I make a scene.”

“This is really hard to say, so I am just going to say it.” Jason paused. Looking into her deep blue eyes. Full of life and love to give to someone who deserved it. “I’m married Courtney.” Jason said at last.

“What?” Courtney said in a cold tone.

“Courtney…” he saw the rage in her blue eyes.

“What?” she said again. He voices raising slightly. “Your married?”

“Yes, Courtney…”

“Please calm down.”

“Courtney it wasn’t lik…”

“Do not tell me what it was like!” she snarled. “I know what you wanted and you got it. Oh I think you might want to know something because I am sure you don’t remember, you know our second time around, while you’re thighs were quivering you said something. You said I love you Courtney. I might not know what you wife’s name is, I pretty sure it isn’t Courtney.” Courtney stood up. She went over to Jason. “ Let me tell you something else. You were really good, I hope I was just as good.” Jason saw the tears that were in her eyes.

Jason went to grab her arm before she left and when he did she turned around and slapped him soundly on the cheek. “Let go!” she said in a cold voice. He did immediately he put his had up to his cheek and watch her walk out of the dinners. Jason felt tear stinging the back of his eyes but it wasn’t from the pain of his cheek but because he really did mean what he said to Courtney. He did love her now he had ruined his chance with her.

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When Courtney walked out to the dinner, she went to the docks. She sat on the bench and let the tears that she had been holding back fall. Damn that man. Damn all men. They’re nothing but heartache any way. She thought to herself.

A/N: Was it any good. Tell me.

Courtney did what she had to do for the last two days. She would wake up, get dressed, do what she had to do around the house, walk Roise, get changed, go to work, come home, take a shower, and go to sleep. She had came to accept that Jason had only used her to get over his wife. They most likely had big fight and he need comfort and she had been that. His little comfort object.

She heard a knock on her door and went to answered it when she saw it was Carly. She pulled her best friend into a quick hug. “Hey.” Courtney said.

“Hey. I have been so worried about you. You looked really tried and sad.”

“I’m okay Carly just thinking about the past.”

“Look I need to ask you something. You and Jason were alone a couple days ago. Did he say anything about anything that might be bothering him.”

“Why?” Courtney asked.

“Because everyday I have seen him since he looks like shit. Worst than you but not be much.”

“Thank you. I love you too.”

“No really. Something happened didn’t it. Something happened here with you him.”

“NO!” Courtney said.

“Do not lie to me.”

“Nothing…..happened okay.”

“Yes something did.”

“It was nothing.”

“It had to be something for you both of you guys to be acting this way.”

“Oh Sweetie. Oh I am so sorry. I never thought it was something like that.”

“AND YOU WANT TO KNOW SOMETHING WORSE I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE JACKASS.” She said and her tears falling freely now.

“Sweetie. I think he loves you too. In fact, I know he does. That is why he hasn’t been back to his penthouse.”

“Oh Carly…..I was just some women he slept with. He needed comfort and I was there and I was all over him so you know we both got what we wanted I guess.”

“Courtney…he has feelings for you. I know he does just believe in him.”

“I can’t Carly. I can’t. He lied to me, he used me, I used him.”

“Look you two need to talk. I am not talking to that asshole.”

“Please Court…I hate seeing my two best friends hurting like this.”

“Yeah well…..Look I need to get some stuff done.”

“Yeah I understand. I will let you get to it. I love you Court and I want you to be happy.”

“I know and I love you too.”

“Okay well see you tonight.”

“Um…I was wondering if I could have today off?” Courtney asked.

“Bye.” Carly said as she walk out the door.

“Bye.” Courtney called after her.

Courtney slumped onto the couch and threw the book that was on the table at the vase that she had first bought when she moved here. “Damn.” Was all she said as she cried.

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Jason was sitting at the bar of Jake’s sipping on his Bud. He hated himself. He had went and saw Brenda and asked for a separation. She had cried and beg him to forgive her but he said that he couldn’t take it anymore. He need to get away from her and that he loved her and always would but not like he was supposed to love a wife. She had finally agree to give him one. They had talked a little while longer. Remember some of their good time together. By time the conversation was over, they were both in tears and they had kissed and said good-bye to each other.

“Hey Jase I think me and you need to talk.”

“What about Carly?” he said to the woman who had sat next to him at the bar.

“About Courtney. She told me what happened.”

“Oh.” Was all he said.

“How could you? Do you know what the poor girl went through?”

“She has been hurt by every one she had ever loved and now you hurt her too. What were you thinking sleeping with her while you were married. Does Courtney look like some slut that does marry man every day.”

“Dammit Carly it wasn’t like that, nothing like that.”

“Oh really then how was it?”

“I fell in lover her too.”

“I love her. I am not sure how it happened but it did. I just got done talking to Brenda. We are getting a separation.”

“Oh Jase you know how much I despise that woman and how much I wish you would leave her. Are you sure you want to it so soon. I mean I love Courtney but are you ready to throw your marriage away.”

“That’s not the only reason I am getting a separation. When I came home last week I saw her a Jax together.”

“That little bitch.”

“Yeah well I was in a bad place then I met Courtney. I wanted to hurt Brenda like she did me but than I fell in love with Courtney.”

“You should see her she looks like shit. She is angry with you.”

“I know. I want to work it out with her but I am afraid she will reject me.”

“Well you will never know until you see.”

“Then what are you waiting for. Get up off your ass and go get the women you love.”

With those last words Jason got up off the barstool and leaned over and gave Carly a hug and a kiss and left Jake’s.

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Courtney was in the middle of a dream when she heard her doorbell ring. She got up and stumbled a little to the door. When she opened it, she thought it was part of her dream.