Courtney and Carly walked into the penthouse, to finish their lunch. When the walked in the saw on the couch nursing a scotch, and broken glass everywhere. Carly ran over to Sonny, looking at him checking for wounds and anything else she could fine when she saw nothing she stood back up. “What in the fuck happened,” she asked him.

“Look over you shoulder at the girl with blonde hair and blue eyes, that what happen,” Sonny said. It was all her fault; she caused him his friendship, his brother. She screwed him and Jason up. Took his best worker from him.

“What…….what do you mean Sonny, what did I do?” she asked him, she didn’t hurt sonny, at least she didn’t think she did.

“You………………stole Jason away. He comes in here telling me that he loves you that he won’t break up with you when it’s the right thing to do, when it the important thing to do when it comes to your safety but he loved you and says he can protect you. When you wined up in a lake or a the ocean we’ll know who prot……………..”

“Stop it Sonny. STOP IT. JASON CAN PROTECT ME. I LOVE HIM AND I WILL NOT LET YOU RUIN THE BEST THING IN MY LIFE,” Courtney screamed. She found out Jason loved her, that he chose her over Sonny. “HOW DARE YOU TRY TO CONTROL ME. HOW FUCKING DARE YOU, I AM OVER 21 SONNY. I WILL DO WHATEVER I DAMN WELL WANT.”

“YOUR BROTHER MADE ME PROMISE THAT I WOULD MAKE SURE YOUR SAFE, THAT YOU WOULD BE SAFE. I WILL NOT ALLOW YOU AND JASON BE TOGETHER, DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME. YOU WILL BREAK UP WITH HIM.”

“NO SONNY I WILL NOT, DAMN YOU. WHY CAN’T YOU BE HAPPY FOR US,” with that she walked out door, slamming it on her way. How dare he, how dare he try to tell her to run her life. She was a gown woman who could take care of herself. She could protect herself and she would not let Jason get away. She loved him and needed to find him and tell him that. That she would always be there for him, not letting him get away.

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Jason walked into the loft, he smiled as he did. He could not wait to see her, to tell her that he loved her. When he got there he went into the kitchen but she wasn’t in there, then to the bedroom and bathroom but she wasn’t there. Where in the hell was she?

He sat down on the couch, when something caught his eye. Her Journal, he shouldn’t read it but something just drew him to it. This is wrong he told himself but he picked it up and turn to the page that was book marked.

Jason knew about that one, Sonny hated it. Sonny didn’t trust him to love her. He was like everyone else, thinking that he’s not caplet of love. He might have not said that but he knew that was what is was about. He looked back down to her writing.

Now about loving him loving her, well that was a given. He had fell in love with her when he first saw her, first made love to her, hell he even loved her when they were fighting. She was the most important thing in his life. How could she not see that. She was the love of his life. He would give his life for her, and now after reading that, he knew that went both ways.

3) My last worry and maybe the one that worries the most. Will he go back to Brenda, would he find out that he didn’t love me, he was just on the rebound. I don’t think I could handle see him with her, loving her and not me. I couldn’t see that. He’s mine, but I know if he ever did find out he loved her not me, I would fight, and I would fight until the end.

How could she ever worry about that. Brenda and his love was over a long time ago, if he ever loved her. She wanted to play him, with Sonny and Jax. She wanted all three to vie after her. He wouldn’t do that, not ever. Hell not even for Courtney……………….well maybe Courtney. He would fight for her, just like she would fight for him. But Courtney wasn’t like that. When she loved someone she would be loyal. He did know that. She was honorable.

I just hop he does love me and we can be together. I want to be with him so bad. He is the best man I have ever met. I know that I don’t talk to the lord about every night I have been praying that he would love me, that he would stay with me. God this sounds desperate but I need him, I love him. I just hope he wants me.

He read the passage. She wouldn’t have to pray anymore. He loved her. He wanted her. He needed her. He would keep her as long as she allowed. He would lover as long as she let him.

He heard footsteps coming towards the door. He book marked the page and sat it back on the table. He was going to tell her that she meant more then anything that she would keep her. When she walked in the door he smiled at her but her was tear stained, her eyes were sad.

Courtney looked at him. “GET OUT!”

A/N: Any good. Tell me and if you want more. Love, Ashley.