Chapter One

[Jason is having a flashback dream about moments he had with Courtney on that rainy night, when they said goodbye to each other. It just so happens that the song "Goodbye" by Jagged Edge is playing in the background].

Jason: Ok, just forget it, just forget it. I know you're angry. I wrecked your life. Let's just leave it at that, ok?

Courtney: So you'd rather just stay mad at me?

Jason: No, I'd rather not feel anything, Courtney. That's what I'm used to. I mean, I'd rather look at you and see a person that i used to know, someone good, someone who deserves a good life who has nothing to do with me anymore.

[Song Starts]
Sometimes, What may be the best thing for you to do
Well sometimes that may be the hardest thing for you to do
And that's real, cause I know I love you, I know how I feel about you
But I also know that don't make everything alright
And for that reason
I gotta say goodbye.....


Courtney: I do! I did I want to get back together with you, Jason. God, I practically begged you not to sign the divorce papers, but you did it anyway and closed the door in my face.

Jason: Just leave it closed, please. Ok? I can't freaking do this anymore! I can't have you yelling at me one minute and then crying for me the next. I can't stop being mad at you any more than I can
stop loving you, and I don't want to fight anymore!

Courtney: Then say goodbye, Jason. Just say it and mean it, and
maybe I'll mean it, too. See? You can't do it either. You know –

[Jason suddenly pulls her into an intense kiss]

Tell me have you ever been in a, situation where the best thing you could do
Is the hardest thing you've ever done, But you try to do whats right
And I know deep down inside, that I really wanna be there by your side
But I can't stand to see you cry
Not when it's because of me.....

Courtney: Why did you kiss me?

Jason: Because I couldn't help myself, just like now. That's never happened with anybody else. You know, if it's a bad idea, I stop. If it's a mistake, I learn. If it hurts too much, I quit feeling. Except with you.

And it's over, I'll never love another
I'm always thinking of her, I'm doing this because of her....
Baby I don't wanna say goodbye, So i'm just standing here wondering why
Just don't like to see when you cry
So Ima say goodbye.


Courtney: I think about the future all the time. You know, where I'll be a month from now or a year from now. You know, I try to predict the morning that I’ll wake up and not miss you anymore. It
hasn't happened yet, but it's so typical, right? Look, I know that there's a way to let go. I just -- sooner or later, I’ll find it.

Jason: You start with saying the words. Goodbye.


Ain't no one in this world that can ever take your place
All the love that we shared, it can never be erased
And I know that, that it hurts so bad
And I'm sorry, cause you’re the best I had....

Jason suddenly woke up in a cold sweat. It had been the third night in a row and his sub consciousness was eating him whole. It's been months since he and Courtney had broken up.

"So why the hell am I still thinking about her?" he thought to himself. "Well that's a no-brainer," one side of him said. "You still love her, you idiot!" "NO IT'S OVER," he declared to himself out loud. "Great. Perfect, now I'm talking to myself."


With another headache fast approaching him, Jason slid out of bed to get a glass of water and take some aspirin. It was only 3am. His head was spinning by the time he got to the bathroom. He put both hands on the sink and looked in the mirror. He recalled the time that Courtney had shaved him at the loft and laughed a bittersweet laugh. God, he missed her and how happy they used to be. Everything in him ached for her.


"Can't think about that now, she's with Jax," he told himself. DAMMIT. Just the thought of them together nearly killed him. It tore at his soul. On the outside he was ok, preoccupying himself with his job, Sonny's enemies, Sonny and his family, and now Sam and her daughter, Lila..."Is this what life is all about now?" he thought bitterly. Never getting to be truly happy with the only woman he would ever love. Living life but never really experiencing it? In shaking rage Jason threw the glass of water against the wall, watching as it shattered to pieces on the bathroom floor.

”Ring, Ring!”. Jason heard his cell phone and went back to his bedroom to answer it. "What?" he nearly growled. "Jason is everything ok?" It was Sam. Jason had completely forgotten, which wasn't like him. Realization washed over him and he remembered that he was supposed to drive Sam and her brother Danny so that they could take Sonny's jet to Texas.

"No, no everything’s fine. I'm on my way." Putting his migraine behind him, Jason quickly dressed and left for Sam's. But on his way out, instead of water, he grabbed a glass of vodka. He had been doing that a lot lately.



Chapter 2
[Ok, just to clear things up. Jason is definitely not with Sam. The purpose of this chapter is to get Sam out of the picture long enough in a nice, reasonable way so that nothing starts to happen between Jason and Sam. Just the thought of that makes me want to hurl.]

Jason arrived at Sam's place to find her and Danny already packed. Sam was going to take Danny out of the country and help him start a new life. The police were after him after it was discovered that he was the one who accidentally set the fire, which killed his mother.

But the police had no proof that Sam ever knew Danny, much less was helping him all this time. Sonny, Jason and Sam thought it was all best if Danny was given a new identity in a different country where he could start his life over.

"You guys all set?" asked Jason as he helped them carry their luggage to his Escalade.

"Yeah we are ready,” replied Danny.

"I just called Sonny and he said everything's alright, Lila's sleeping now," said Sam. "And he knows I'm going to be calling like 10 times a day just to check up on her, while I'm gone."


Jason could see that Sam was worried. It took a lot of convincing from everyone to ensure Sam that it was best not to bring Lila along. She was still very fragile from her premature birth. And Danny needed Sam to help him start his new life in Calgary.

They would be very busy and Sonny had graciously given Danny enough money for him to start his own motorcycle repair business. But Sam would go with Danny to make sure he met the right people and would be taken care of. They would be gone for a couple of months. In the meantime Sonny and Carly would look after Lila.


They got in the Escalade and drove off to the abandoned airplane hangar where the jet was waiting. Jason volunteered to drive them because he did care for Sam as a friend. But the way he felt about her wouldn't even begin to compare to the way he felt about Courtney. The ride there was quiet, but Sam could sense that something was bothering Jason. And she knew what it was. Who it would always be. Courtney. Sam smiled to herself. "After all this time..."


As they got to the hangar Jason helped load their luggage into the jet.

"Thank you for everything Mr. Morgan" said Danny.

"For the last time call me Jason", said Jason jokingly as he waved to Danny from the outside of the jet.

 Jason turned to say bye to Sam, who told him to take care of himself. "God, Jason for everything you've done you deserve to be happy."

"What the makes you think I'm not?" asked a surprised Jason.

"Well for one, it's 3:30 in the morning and two, you smell like vodka. And I know for a fact that you only drink when something is bothering you."

"Just something to keep me awake" covered Jason.

 "Yeah whatever," said Sam as she climbed into the jet. "Help take care of Lila while I'm gone, ok?"

"I will" promised Jason. "Bye" he watched as the jet took off.