The island

Courtney: This island is so beautiful.

Jason: Yes, it is.

Courtney: It's a perfect place to disappear.

[Hey takes her to deck]

Jason: Nice breeze.

Courtney: Yeah.

Jason: And the ocean.

Courtney: And everything looks so pure and clean in the moonlight.

Jason: You know, we can go swimming.

Courtney: [nervous] Yeah, sure. That sounds good.

Jason: There's a private cove right up the beach. It's safe. Water's warm.

Courtney: Warm is good.

Jason: Ok.

Courtney: Ok.

Jason: I'll get the keys to the jeep.

Courtney: I'll -- I'll dig out my suit.  [she goes into her bags and finds the pills]

Jason: You ready?

Courtney: You know, the second i hit that water, I knew i was in trouble.

Jason: Of course you don't want to go swimming. I'm -- i'm sorry.

Courtney: No, I mean, I thought I could swim forever, but I guess I was wrong.

Jason: I didn't -- courtney, I didn't -- I didn't even think about it. You know, we -- we can go somewhere else. We don't even have to stay here.

Courtney: No, no, jason, no. I want to stay. I mean, that's the whole reason we're here, right -- to be honest with each other?

Jason: Yeah, but i should have -- I should have known. I should have thought about it.

Courtney: There's no way you could have known. It's just thinking of the water, I just -- I just get cold all over again. I feel like I'm sinking, like i'm not going to come back up --

jason: I'm not going to let that happen, ok? It's ok.  [He hugs her]

Courtney: Ok. See how that works? I was honest with you. Nothing bad happened. You're still here.

Jason: Of course I'm still here.

Courtney: I have to stop hiding things from you.

[They are on the couch]

Courtney: You know, you can go swimming without me if you want.

Jason: No. No, I'm going to -- I'm going to stay here with you.

Courtney: I don't know why you'd want to -- i mean, after the way I've been acting.

Jason: I know that you're still hurting, and I can understand that part. But --

courtney: You can say it, jason, whatever it is. Look, if you don't, I'm just going to make something up in my head and i'm going to get upset and I'm going to dump it on you and we're just going to go back to where we started.

Jason: Ok. I was going to say that i understand what you feel, but I don'T. I can'T. The baby that you're grieving for, the life that never happened -- I can't feel that.

Courtney: Because I didn't tell you i was pregnant.

Jason: Wait -- I wish you would have told me. But it wouldn't have mattered.

Courtney: Why not?

Jason: Because of my accident. I can't picture what the baby might have looked like. You know, I can't make it real in my mind. But you can. You can love the baby, you can miss the baby. I -- i just can't do that. You know, something's missing inside of me in my head, and I'm failing you right now because of the way i am.

Courtney: You haven't failed me, jason. You've loved me the best that you could.

Jason: It isn't enough.

Courtney: Come on, i mean, you held on when i shut you out, when i attacked you for no reason at all, and -- and when I chased you away, you came back.

Jason: But I can't give you what you need the most. I can't -- i can't feel what you feel.

Courtney: Maybe it's better that you can't picture our baby. You won't get lost in the pain like i do. And I still imagine you being a father. I see me putting our baby in your arms for the first time. And none of this can happen, but I -- i keep letting it drag me down, and -- and you're able to let our baby go.

Jason: And it hurts you. Come on, courtney, just say it.

Courtney: No.

Jason: The way -- the way i am is hurting you.

Courtney: Jason, no. It's just you've reached a place that i want to get to. And you don't dwell on what can't happen. You -- you know how to move on.

Jason: Yeah, but if i could just understand what you're feeling --

courtney: Ok.  [Finger sex!]

[Jason sighs]

courtney: It's -- it's like those rocks on the shore. I mean, you've seen them, right? You can picture them. And they're all ripped up by the waves. And they -- they have these holes in them that nothing can fill up for very long. It's like the tide goes out and they're empty again, no matter what. That place inside me, this empty place, that's what it feels like. And it hurts, no matter what i do.

Jason: Well, maybe that empty place will always be there no matter how much i love you.

Courtney: It's just my whole life i have always taken care of someone else. I just -- I don't know how --

jason: You don't have to know how. Just let me.

Courtney: Something inside me just doesn't trust that, no matter how much i love you, jason. It's like this part of me, the scared part knows no matter what i do, no -- just knows that you -- one day you'll be gone.

The patio/deck

Jason: Hey, i'm not going anywhere.

Courtney: I don't doubt you, jason. I doubt myself.

Jason: Why?

Courtney: Because a part of me knows that the love will fade because it always does. And it just -- it hurts more every time. You know it. Yeah, I'm strong and i move on, but -- but i'm less.

Jason: I can understand that.

Courtney: So anyway, i do whatever i can think of to try to hold on. I mean, I -- i try to fix every problem. I avoid every fight. I try to make everything perfect so that I don't lose you, but -- but when i had the miscarriage, I thought that i ruined everything, you know? That our love would vanish. So instead of dreading the pain of losing you, I just -- I pushed you away.

Jason: I hated that we were fighting. And I hated to see that you were in pain. But I never thought about leaving once. You know what? Maybe -- you know, maybe our future isn't what we thought. But we still have a life together. Ok? [she nods] And whatever happens -- I mean, if you can't -- if you can't trust anything else, just trust that i love you.

[They share a romantic kiss]

Courtney: I do.

[The come together for some more hot kisses, move back towards the chaise, and lie down, him on top of her.]

Later…

[They are asleep on the chaise. Courtney awakens and sits up, she looks at Jason and then wraps his arm around her and he snuggles closer to her.]